little devotional

"have you ever been alone? you have everything. you can have anything you want. you're smart. you're funny. you're beautiful. you're everything a guy could hope for. so have you ever been alone?" being surrounded by people that care. that want. that hope for a glimpse of how it would be like to hold your hand. to have you by their side. to have a glimpse of your pretty eyes starring back at theirs. its funny how deep a persons eyes can be. they tell you everything. they tell me everything. "are you or are you not capable of being my friend?" "yes or no answers only" the truth is, i dont know. i really dont.

zero hero

i learnt something today. there is one similarity and one difference between a zero and a hero. the similarity is: both the zero and the hero have knowledge. they both know wat is right and wat is wrong. wat they should do and wat they should not. information and knowledge is abundant nowadays. we can source it everywhere. so we do have a clear idea of wat is expected of us. the difference however is: the zero knows wat he has to do. he knows wat is right but chooses NOT to carry it out. he chooses to back off and shy away from resposiblity. he chooses the OTHER path and not the one that cleary ought to be took. a hero however chooses to take the RIGHT path. and does wat ought to be done. he carries out responsibility and carries it out well. courage is needed. courage is having the fear but still doing it anyway. heroes can be found everyday and everywhere. from small things like taking out the trash and being a hero to ur mother. or saving a life and being a hero to the world. your choice nonetheless.

jet set radio future

think about it. someone with eyes like diamonds. someone with the kindest eyes ever. someone smart. someone witty. someone thats not afraid to smile. someone thats not afraid to laugh out loud. someone that loves music as much as i do. someone that loves hanging out doing nothing. someone that loves having her hair stroked. someone that loves being herself. someone thats comfortable being herself. someone that loves talking. someone that loves talking to me. someone that loves being around me. someone that knows when to back off when i need the space. someone thats comes close when i need the body heat. someone that insists that shes right even though she knows i am. someone that loves being stupid. someone that has the guts to stand up in front of people and talk. someone that isnt shy. someone that knows when to be shy. someone that wont bother if my hair is a mess. someone that will straighten my collar for me even though i dont want her to. someone that stares at me when im sleeping. someone thats there when i wake up. someone that calls me for no reason at all. someone that will hit me when i stare at another girl. someone that knows when to be jealous. someone that will take me home when im too drunk to drive. where are u? someone? anyone?

relationship of command

its wierd how we arent in control of everything that happens around and to us. we think that we have total control of our own life but the truth is, we have zilch control over things and how they turn out. we can plan and plan and plan how we want things to happen, but the truth of the matter is, things NEVER turn out the way its supposed to be. we cant anticipate the result because it usually turns out completely different to what we had planned. the thing i've learned so far, is that in a screwed up wierd sorta way, things turn out and work themselves out. it may not be the exact result that we hoped for, but it works out. and its about how u take these "different" results that matter. its not about getting your "perfect" results.

a song for everyone

i miss being on stage. i miss being in front of large crowds. i miss being in the spotlight. i just got back from the hoobastank concert. free tickets courtesy of me "sister". they put on a real good show. althought i dont know practially all the songs they played except the singles. anyways. i miss being in front of an audience. i miss having your stomach tie knots on you right before you're supposed to hit the stage. i miss having sweaty palms while cleanching your guitar before you start the set. i miss having all my headaches fade away when i walk out on stage. i miss having the glaring spotlight in my face. i miss staring at people and having them stare back. i miss having people come up to me asking where they could purchase a copy of our music. i miss the feeling of satisfaction after playing the whole set. its nice having people appreciate you and your music. dont you think?

the rain

i just began to realise that things happen like the rain. its random. when it rains, you're either prepared for it or you're not. when it rains, some people are inside and they dont get caught in it, while others are out there, and unsuspectingly, they get caught in the rain, and get drenched unless they have an umbrella. im caught in the rain. and it feels good to be wet. its a refreshing feeling to be caught out in the rain when you least expect it. but at the same time, you feel cold. shivering cold. its a wierd thing the rain. but i enjoy being caught in the rain.

cross out the eyes

friends are very influencial. every little thing they say and do can influence a persons judgement and actions. i realised that cause my friends have been telling me that they have learnt alot from me. i've had 2 of my friends tell me today that i've been influencial over their lives. it flatters me and at the same time scares me to know that whatever i say and do has a hold on how other people react to their problems. i've told someone that "if life isn't hard, it isn't fun anymore". and just by saying that, my friend felt better and he had the ability to smile. when a person smiles, their eyes light up. they light up brighter than ever when you smile back with them. i know someone with the prettiest eyes ever. and whenever she smiles. her eyes turn into diamonds. they sparkle. it's good to know that we all have the ability to make a difference in someone else's life. it feels warm when you're able to make another person smile.

a hole in the world

sometimes u think about things. and u wonder why things end up the way it is. how come the things that you really want u dont get. and when ur not passionate about something. it just falls right in ur face. when u look too hard for something u dont usually find it. but when ur ignorant and impartial about things. stuff works out. i want to care less about my situation now. ignorance is bliss. but it crops up every single time im alone. when im brushing my teeth. when im lying on the bed. when im driving home alone. headlights pass me by and i feel numb. if only i were lying in a chalked outline. if only there could be a sign. *my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me*so wont you kill me so i'd die happy*

standing on the edge of summer

well. im already half way through the holies and it sucks having to know that summer holies are ending. its 3 weeks of rest and relaxation but its gonna be over in a flash. we only have about a week left and its feels horrible knowing that i have to go back to the same old routine. the waking up at dawn. the dragging urself out of bed. the horrible ringing in your ears because u cant seem to find your glasses in the dark. but all in all, this time around, the holidays were pretty eventful. i did quite abit. i found out abit more about myself and the people around me. i found out that i'm sweet(she says). i found out that the more you give the more you recieve. it scares me to think that the holies will be over soon. but on the other hand. i think about it,and its not how much time you're given. its wat you do with that time provided that is wats important.